I’ve been feeling the push lately. You know, when God wants you to do something and you’re secretly fighting Him? Yeah, that.
I started this blog years ago. I am a writer, have been for as long as I can remember. I thoroughly enjoy it. But over the course of the last year, I think I’ve blogged something like four times. Pathetic. The reason has not been “lack of time” or “lack of content”. I’ve really been struggling on what direction to take this blog. It started as a very humble, *cough cough* day-to-day walk through my life. I know EVERYONE in cyber-land wanted to read about that, right? Because I’m all great and awesome and stuff.
And then, I quickly realized that my life was not that interesting, or comical. That was about the same time I started my walk with the Lord. So I thought my overly popular (yeah right), WordPress blog could become a sort of “soul winning by way of testimony” autobiography. I posted a couple of entries about God and how he’s worked in my life and then stopped.
Why did I stop? I stopped because of fear. I was afraid I was going to say something wrong. I wasn’t confident in my theology, my bible knowledge (more like lack thereof), or my understanding of this whole Christianity thing. And, truth be told, I’m still afraid and un-confident. So what’s the difference? God.
About a month ago I started getting the urge to blog. And it wasn’t because some pretty cool, insanely interesting things were happening. As a matter of fact, it was the exact opposite. Nothing was going on at all. I had this urge and a major case of the BLOCK. The urge has not gone away. Actually, the Lord spoke to me and told me to continue my blog. Problem is, He didn’t tell me what to write about.
I have complete faith though. If He wants this to happen… guess what? It’s going to happen. So here I am, blogging about nothing in particular, but I’m trusting it’s happening for a reason. Even if I don’t know what that reason is. So here’s my plea: If you are a pray-er, could you please pray for the Lord to tell you (or me) what it is I’m supposed to blog about? Honestly, I think I know. I just don’t want to believe it… And I would really like someone else to confirm it before I follow through.
If you’re a non-christian (which I know there are a lot of you out there), I love you. Please don’t stop reading my blog because you don’t believe the same why I do. I value your opinion, your friendship (if we have one), and your soul. And because of that, I would never ever judge you for what you believe or turn my back on you because of what you think. And hey, if I’m right about what I think I’m supposed to write about, you’ll want to stick around. It will be interesting, very invasive, and probably quite comical.
Pray. Then comment. Or if you don’t want to comment, you can email me, or message me on Facebook: email@example.com OR Crystal Kidd on Facebook. Peace.